John Smulo has a great post on his blog today titled “On Being a Misfit”. Here is an excerpt from it:
“Yet over the last decade, I have increasingly–year by year–not known where I fit. I don’t resonate with much of the Christian culture around me–though I still love Jesus deeply. I also don’t identify with those who live their lives as if Jesus isn’t the center of the cosmos.
This tension of feeling like I’m in the world and Christendom–but not of it–is overwhelming at times. It raises questions that impact every area of my life. At times, this pulling this way and that is paralyzing; at other times I get a lot of joy from exploring new territory.”
I really resonate with what John is articulating, and I feel I’m at that paralyzing point right now. Along with my husband I am tired of trying and hoping things will change, to see little movement. I am tired of thinking about where it is all going. I am tired of feeling like I am hitting my head against a brick wall. I know some of you will say “Seek God and He will show you the way.” Don’t worry, we do this! The trouble is I sometimes wonder if God is tired of it all as well?
What are your thoughts? Do you identify with Christians around you, or do you feel like an alien species?